Lately I just want to die, since I do not have a reason to live for.
My only reason was you and you are not here anymore. I miss you both, I want to be a child again, life was easier then. I remember when you punished me and I told you how much I hated you, now I regret those words, and I could give anything to have you here with me, to protect me, to love me.
I miss you mom, I miss you dad, forget me for everything, I was not a good son.
If I survive this night, I will write you again, If not, I hope to see you then.